19 Years

 Nineteen years ago we stood before God and family
 to start our journey.We started to make our own happy
 We waited to have the babies join our home.
 The journey was not always easy ,but we agreed
 we would make it work thru the good and bad.
 I am so sorry for the times i made you sad.
 I tried the best i could, i grew up without a dad
 i didnt have much of a model to watch and learn
 I wanted mom and dad,for that I yearned.
 I grew up in a home that was broken.
 I grew up with a feeling of lonesome.
 I played sports to get my mind off of it.
 Baseball, Football, Basketball helped it
 at the end of the day i went home with one missing
 I often watched and waited and he wouldnt come home
 I said to my self while young .When I have children
 they will have the security of knowing mom and dad were
 home at the end of each day.We would show them the right way.
 Somewhere along the way the straight road went awry.
 Its okay i thought i married for life we would make it again right.
 I was always faithful and I trusted,even when our road was maybe busted.
 The two of us along with our babies would be alright and not doomed or crushed
 You said you wanted a divorce.Toxic people taliked and you listened.
 We took a trip the four of us ,came home happy !
 Until you went and were talked out of it.
 I said NO ! No ! we have babies to raise. You said you didnt care .
 I would have done anything to keep our babies parents together.
 You ramped it up ,got nasty sat out to humiliate and destroy a character.
 Turned friends and family against me .several still wont talk to me even family.
 Still i long for your hug , a kiss goodnight ,to be woken up with a lets go home honey
 I know though that just sounds funny.Today you are with our kids and stand in dad and 
 celebrate a christmas time that i wont have. Still thru the hell ..I love you .